I am no Lucifer, within me no angel lies,
Yet from great heights I keep falling in front of my eyes,
Swirling down in a whirlpool,
Shredding wings battling in typhoons,
And I ask myself, ‘why don’t I give up to begin with?’
And I crave for new beginnings to give up on and be done
with.
So young I am, that it aches and yearns and bursts with
energy,
So I burn and drown and try so hard that I can barely
breathe,
Yet emerge alive and unfortunately survive,
Chiding my recklessness as I grow older by the daylight,
And I ask myself, ’when did my naivety, I loose and begun
doubting paths I choose?’
And I crave to be younger and to be perished in my pursuits.
I feel it physically,
as the distant places pull me,
With so great a force I can barely move my feet,
And it’s no longer just gravity,
That me to the ground keeps,
And I ask myself, ’is there any place other than this that I
can possibly be?’
And I crave for just one strong pull; just a sole pull to
set me free.
I know I am lost, so lost so lost!
But so familiar is this place, I move about like a cloaked
ghost
I have deliberately strayed;
Am not trapped in this solved maze,
And I ask myself, ’what’s the glory in being found from here?’
And so I crave to be lost more in a tale nobody dares.
I call myself a seeker incessantly in search of something
‘new’,
I end up finding the same truth; they say it’s within under
layers quite a few,
I take some of its part and leave my bit in it,
Tainting the new-found, labeling no longer fit,
And I ask myself, ‘what quest was it that ended rendering it
no longer new?’
And I crave for a quest that ends never and keeps me to it
forever sinew.
I am in pain, its excruciating as hell,
It heightens and proliferates in measures I cannot tell,
When broken wings and broken dreams,
Turn about and stab in, everything, for a tiny moment, is at peace,
And I ask myself, ‘what is left in me that obstructs me from
the final peace out?’
And I crave to be broken more and be hushed down once and
for all.
For once in love I fell and man it was ecstatic,
Inside the gates of boundless amazement, time with you I never
regretted,
But I was ordained to let you go,
And prove to them my solemn oath,
And I asked myself, ’is letting go the yardstick for my love
to thee?’
And I craved to love you more; and more and more until I gather the strength to set you free.
:) :)..
